Will I have the strength to go through with my divorce?
I'm presuming you're still pretty young, but even if you weren't, you have a job and 2 people that know. Hold no secrets. Start sharing with people at work or at the kids' school and you'll find, very quickly, you have more supporters than you ever thought possible. Truly this is going to be the most difficult decision to follow through on. However, there is some advice I gave my sister that, ironically, I needed to hear myself - Is this the life you'd want your child to live? Would you be happy witnessing your child live through the same situation? If it's not good enough for them, then why the hell is it good enough for you? Good luck. Be Stronger than you've ever been and you will get the happy life you and your children deserve to live.